so you just want to be in love?

So someone told me that I only post about love here on my blog.. and I was like so what?

I love love.. I love the thought of being in love.. I love the thought of others being emersed in love.. love is cool.. love is refreshing.. love is beautiful.


One day I will be in love.. and I will love it.. I honestly don’t think I have been in love yet.. because I haven’t felt anything so intense for someone..

One day…


Broken hearts

You were not my type.. But your willingness to listen to me attracted me.. I remember out first time meet up.. We sat in my front yard and talked until 5 am and I knew I had to be on the road by 6 am.. I liked your mind.. I liked how you took care of those around you.. But I couldn’t stand another heart break.. I coasted with you for months.. Leaving you at arms length.. I finally decided to let you in.. I told you my pain.. I air my dirty laundry.. I trusted you.. I believed you.. You told me that you loved me.. I didn’t say it back because I wanted to be sure.. I let you love me.. I gave myself to you.. All I wanted in return was love and honesty.. I wanted to be there for you during your tragic times.. I prayed for you when I couldn’t pray for myself.. During my hard Times you weren’t there.. I adjusted.. I moved forward.. You popped back up.. You left again… Tragedy stuck once more.. There I am.. Trying to heal you..  And you take.. And take.. Nothing to be reciprocated…. I over extend.. You reassure me that it’s no one else.. I believe you.. And I believe you.. And I believe you.. Until I stop blocking the good sense that my ancestors gave me. I prayed to the most high.. I prayed to my inner self.. I prayed for peace.. And my answer came.. Its not me .. It was you.. You were attracted to my nurturing ..  What I have.. You needed..   But I have nothing left.. Nothing but pieces.. Pieces of a broken heart.

Friday night….

Oooooh baby, Not tonight
I don’t wanna fuss n fight
I just wanna make it right
Ooh, ooh there’s work to do
I wanna get real close to you
I wanna get you in the mood

All the things you want to do
Just relax and I’ll take care of you

And anytime you want me
I’m sayin that I love you every day
And I know that you love me
Baby, admit it

Give me all your love and don’t stop
My love’s waiting when you reach the top
(All night long)
Come into my bedroom honey
What I got will make you spend money
(All night long)

I’ve been gone for a minute..but i’m back at the jump off!

so much has happened in the last 22 days! My world has been shaken… turned upside down.. wobbled.. and fell into place.. but I am grateful! I am still in the land of the living!. Just last night my boys and I were on our way home and a wrong way driver was coming towards us at full speed.. than goodness we are ok.. but yeah.. lets get this show on the road.. I miss blogging! and i’m back in the gym!



I love your brown skin…

Every time I see your lips
It makes me think of honey-coated chocolate
Your kisses are worth more than gold to me
I’ll be your almond joy, you’ll be my sugar daddy

Every time you come around
Something magnetic pulls me and I can’t get out
Disoriented, I can’t tell my up from down
All I know is that I wanna lay you down

Every time I let you in
Abracadabra magic happens as we swim
Higher and higher finally we reach Heaven
Come back to earth and then we do it all again, yeah

Skin so brown, lips so round, baby, how can I be down?
Beautiful mahogany, you make me feel like a queen
Tell me what’s that thing you do
That makes me wanna get next to you, yeah

Brown skin, you know I love your brown skin
I can’t tell where yours begins, I can’t tell where mine ends
Brown skin, up against my brown skin
Need some every now and then, every now and then

Brown Skin- India.Arie

When to let go…


So often we try to hold on to relationships that are fastly approaching the finish line. We look at the potential and possibilities but we over look the factual and actual display of characteristics. This happen in friendships, romances, spiritual connects etc. We should never have to profusely apologize to keep someone near. We should never have to compromise our feeling nor standards just to say that’s my husband/ friend/family.

Mann just let it go. #positiveenergy