I sometimes wonder if marriage is for me .. I seen the good the bad and the ugly.. Being with someone for 10 plus years kinda jaded me in the marriage department.
I mean I do want a companion.. but I don’t think I want the title and court obligations…
When it’s over I just want to be able to walk away and not have to fight for what i think is minds or yours..
In all actually, court marriages were never for black people.. this was a western practice that we took on when the drug us over here.. but that besides the point.
I see men and women in marriages where they are completely unsatisfied, hurting and plain unhappy..
I don’t want that.. I mean I know each relationship doesn’t have all high times.. but I don’t want to be continuously unhappy because i’m tied to someone by a paper that filed with the state.
any who.. my mind might change..lol
my soul is irritated.. Up and down my social media timeline.. I see people saying ” Just pray about”.. I have an issue with that..
Now let me declare this.. disclaimer this
“I don’t care who you believe in, I’m not trying to offend a single soul”
back to what I was saying…
Just pray isn’t going to do anything.. you are setting yourself up to get walked over and letting life happen to you.. and not making things happen.
I don’t know how I’m going to pay my bill – Honey just pray”
Umm no ma’am.. use your resources.. contact organizations that help with those sorts of time.. get on a budget go to a day labor.
Stop giving up and depending on prayer to get you through.. Don’t get me wrong.. prayer/ meditation is great.. it helps with the mind.. but even in the bible it says prayer with out works is dead. Meaning. just praying and no action is useless.
I swear the next person who say Just pray.. I’m going off on you.. so giving people ill advice.. tell them to get up off their ass and make it do what it do.
Alright.. back to your regular scheduled programs-
So how do you date?
In this day and age everything is so fast paced..
It’s not organic.. and feels rushed.
I didn’t date much in high school, so i didn’t get the whole trail and error phase.
Now that i’m actively dating, it’s surreal and i don’t know what to really expect.
I’ve been on some crazy dates.. some dates where my date is mute.. and one where what ever could go wrong..went wrong.
Talk to me … how do I date properly and with intent?
I use to think that love was just a weekend thing, the way you make me feel, sharing a moment
of emptiness, but you see that wasn’t nothing, cause the moment he left I forgot about him, until you came in and you showed me what it really felt to be loved, and kissed, and held, and prayed for, and
wanted, and nutured and guided, and to be understood
No pressure.. .. the lines of communication are open..
I mean we need to talk.. nothing in particular.. but everything and nothing..
The more you talk.. the more I listen..
the more I can decipher.. the more I learn..
but no pressure.. I just want to check out your vibrations..
Do you speak to me when no words are spoken..
Can I grow from you?
wonderful things have been created in the friend zone.
I use to get upset when I see those stats go across my timeline.. But now i can get jiggy with it..
You have to start somewhere.. and who am I to tell you when you are suppose to start?
When you want something different.. you have to do something different..
and I need something different.. I mean.. life thus far has been cool.. but I crave something sweet.. savory.. moving..
I just want to lay here with you until the seasons change… spoon until i get an ache in my back.. while you palm my backside and kiss me on my neck.. give me kisses down my spine.. tell me its ok… if im 30 minutes late for work…
I just want to be with you.