Why you got me so obsessed with you?
Why you got me wasting time laying next to you?
Why do you tell me, “come over, ” to watch you just stare at your phone?
Don’t know why I expected you
To give me attention, affection and love
You’re like a drug, never enough
Can’t take you high, need a new plug
You got me been, got me way too messed up
And I don’t know why I’m even still here
Can’t shake it off, I’ve been here for years on top of years
And I, I’m ready to, I’m ready to, be off of you
‘Cause I admit, that baby I, I just may be stuck on you
It’s crazy.. when you know someone.. you fall insyc with them.. you know their patterns.. you lean their moods.. you call when they were just thinking about you…
It’s the connection…
but the thing is .. you can’t connect with just any and everyone..
you feel their grief.. you absorb their energy.. that isn’t alway good.
some connections need to be severed.. dismissed without looking back..
connections can be detrimental and erosive.
Protect that vibe love.
when you take a chance and do something you never thought you would do..
It opens up so many possibilities.. No regrets tho.
But self-control is needed.. discipline is needed
pleasure only last for so long.. then what.
Missing.. kisses.. replay..
new adventures.. lazy mornings
damn.. I want it all.. but i don’t need it.. it’s not good for me.. and what I have going on..
but I did enjoy the experience.. would I revisit it again..
maybe.. was I satisfied.. of course..
but it’s not permanent. I’m cool with that because it ran its course.. and oh was it good…
I owe you. (faint smile)
I sometimes wonder if marriage is for me .. I seen the good the bad and the ugly.. Being with someone for 10 plus years kinda jaded me in the marriage department.
I mean I do want a companion.. but I don’t think I want the title and court obligations…
When it’s over I just want to be able to walk away and not have to fight for what i think is minds or yours..
In all actually, court marriages were never for black people.. this was a western practice that we took on when the drug us over here.. but that besides the point.
I see men and women in marriages where they are completely unsatisfied, hurting and plain unhappy..
I don’t want that.. I mean I know each relationship doesn’t have all high times.. but I don’t want to be continuously unhappy because i’m tied to someone by a paper that filed with the state.
any who.. my mind might change..lol
The morning is a new beginning.. you get to decide how your day will go.. Will I languish .. will I be forgiving.. will I reminisce about the old-time.. will i create new ones.
I am the author and the finisher.
I am happy.. even when I don’t want to be…
Life is beautiful.. but there is also pain..
But I won’t dwell on that..
I will enjoy the day..
I will get things accomplished..
and I will take a stroll in the mall.
I am the author.
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Happy Tuesday folks.. Today is a lovely day.. the wind is blowing.. the sun is bright.. and i’m off Friday.. what more can I ask for?
I want to be on a beach.. in a lake.. lounging at the Springs.. something.. as long as i’m not working.