what’s going on…

Man.. these last two months have been a vast array up up and downs.. lefts and rights and emotional. So much is going on.. but i must admit my stress level has been reduced damatically!

My Photography business has been picking up speed. I hop to get more equiptment soon so that i can take on more clients, and diversify my portfolio.

Love.. Ahh.. Love.. L–O–v–eeee.. I don’t know whats going on with that.. but what i am realizing is that love starts on the inside.. and unconditional love is a hard task to accept. I don’t think i’m ready for it.. I really wanted to be in a loving relationship with a certain person, but i don’t think they are in a place where they can give love.. freely.

but it’s all good.. i’m optimistic.. i know its out there.. i just hope it finds me soon!

Oh.. its nothing to stress about

Soo. apparently There is good stress .. and not so good stress.

When stress enters your life.. you can try to fix it, or let it go on and it will eventually hinder your life.. here are a few apps that will help receiving some of the negative stress.

GPS for the Soul
Platform: Apple iPhone and iPad (free)
This app, created by Arianna Huffington and Deepak Chopra, operates a bit like biofeedback. Place your fingertip over your phone camera lens, and the app’s built-in sensor will measure your heart rate and its variability. Then, factoring in your age, weight and gender, the app displays your stress level, indicated along a color spectrum that corresponds to an emotional state. It then offers you ways to help lower stress, like listening to calming music or viewing relaxing photos (or family pictures).

Breathe2Relax
Platform: Android, Apple iPhone and iPad (free)
Mental health experts maintain that diaphragmatic breathing is a cornerstone of stress relief. Breathe2Relax guides you through the process with clear videos that help you practice and master the technique. Plug in your headphones and inhale/exhale your way through a dental appointment or turbulent flight. (The app can be used in airplane mode.)

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2013/10/04/stress-apps_n_4018753.html

Don’t rush..

Lately I’ve been slowing down to notice the things I pass by every morning on my way to work. Everyday I have to make three stops before I make it to work in the morning. Most day this is my only “alone time” I get besides bed time.

Needless to say.. I travel through the most historic Parts of Tampa Daily. And i love it. Here are a few clips I’ve taken on my drive to work all with my camera phone.

Slow down.. don’t rush.. Enjoy life-DC

Podcast- Man Traslations

Once again.. we have another podcast on man translation. When I tell you this round table discussion was so fun and enlighten. The topics ranged from dating men with children, effective communication. etc.. Please take a look and like/subscribe! Thanks Clarence Brown for the invite!

It feels good to say no.

If I can’t do it.  I won’t do it.
I’m trying my best not to feel bad about it either.
When I need to walk away from a situation.. I will do so without an explanation.

And boy does it feel good!

Clarence Brown- Male Translation

So on Sunday, a friend of mine named Clarence invited me to a round table discussion  on a host of topics. Ranging from the 80/20 rule. Light vs Dark etc. All i can say was  it was love!. The first part of this series we discussed the Hummer vs Ferrari topic. Take a look at the podcast and tell me what you think.. ohh.. thats me in the black and the big hair..lol

-Young Black & Gifted

My feelings- Broken hearted

This was my feelings 2 months ago.. things have changed:

Its crazy.. just thinking about the previous day.. how I expressed to this person that I loved and cared for them, but they never chose me first.. and in return they stated they felt I never choose them first either. If the feelings are mutual and we both care about each other, would you want to try to make it work? I’m no rocket scientist, but that would be even the more reason to be together. I feel like I always gave more of my heart. In each relationship I always gave more than the other person was willing to give. I actually went through this for over 12 years.. Always going back and forth in between relationships . I admit that I always kind of knew this person would stick around as a friend or confidant sometimes more. When we were together it was never consistence. It was more of a “friends with benefits” relationship. I really hate that term because it’s never really beneficial to the person who craves more. Ah I’m getting misty eyed now.. :(.. any who let me finish my truth. I always kind of felt like I wasn’t good enough for that person, and i think that where think also when out of hand. When you relax your standards and become too accommodating to people and their needs That leaves room for them to play on those feeling. In no way am I blaming.. I let it happen.. I became super venerable. There were a bunch of lies, betrayal etc during these 12 years, so we didn’t take each other serious because of it. Every time I would see this person and spend time with them (lives out-of-state) it seemed like these old feeling would surface. Then after I leave I would let him know how I felt. Them he would get mad and tell me why didn’t i express them in his presence. Well the true of the matter I didn’t want to be hurt.. He would then retort that I gave others the courtesy of knowing how I feel face to face and not him. This has become a vicious cycle.

Single mother discusses her not always easy Christian journey

The Amina Did an article on me and my family.. take a look.

Single mother discusses her not always easy Christian journey.

I need my pusher!

Girl scout cookies are nothing but a sin and a shame.. Lord know i’m trying to do right by this diet.. But the devil is tempting me!

I’m here at my desk and my work bestie sends me an email telling me its about that time- GIRL SCOUT COOKIE TIME!

i’m over here acting like Pookie from New Jack City!

Google myself

ok.. This is the first thing i completes on my 30 things by 30 list.

22. Google myself

Whoa..

yeah so.. umm.. a bunch of pictures popped up and some of them are of just me.. also my Linkedin showed up.

The most infamous thing that poppedd up was my mug shot.. yeah

good girl gone bad..lol

nah.. I actually had to do a walk though on my 25th b-day because i was driving on suspended licence, which wasn’t my fault. I was previously in a car accident where I was transported to the hospital and I didn’t show my insurance because yeah.. i was taken to the hospital!

So they suspend my license and i had moved after that and i never go the letter saying that i had to come to court so a warrant was issues.

I was super sacred at that time. My honey stayed with me the whole time and he laughed at me. We were actually across the street from the jail so I only had to take a picture and set a court date. I went to court and the case was thrown out because I brought in my hospital records and my change of address.

Glad thats all over!